Father's Day

      So today is Father's Day, and I am feeling a little sad and frustrated,  I see too many negative stuff related to fatherhood.  If Mother's Day was full of, "you are only a mother if you didn't annoy your children" or, "if you stayed home" or, "if you baked homemade cookies everyday" Mother's Day would suck because you can never measure up.  It saddens me, because I know that there are many good fathers around the world, but because a minority of them abandon their families, Fathers Day is filled with negativity. 
 
     Firstly, Fatherhood is NOT easy.   The sacrifices all too often are overlooked, and not appreciated.  Fathers work on Christmas so his family can open presents without him, Thanksgiving dinners reheated in microwaves, and hear about Easter egg hunts second hand.  Depending on their work schedule, they can miss performances, games and birthday parties.  Too often resentment builds up for these absences while dad if fulfilling his responsibilities in the family.  I pray that I will be able to raise these children in the knowledge that their dad is doing his job, and that we should always be grateful.
     (I understand that that there are some TRULY absent fathers, but I'm not talking about them)


                                   I miss Luke like crazy today.
   
       I love my children so much, and though this happens other days, I cannot look at Alton, Benjamin, and my expansive tummy, and not feel an overwhelming love and longing for Luke. I wish so badly that he was able to see how funny, thoughtful, and sometimes frustrating his children are. He will never get this time back, and I know how much it breaks his heart.  Some people say that it is harder for the spouse that stays home, but that isn't always the case.  I can imagine Luke sadness of being apart from us and my heart tears apart for him.  If I am having a bad day, I can comfort myself in smiling faces of the kids, where Luke can't.  How very selfish I am in thinking that I don't know that I would be able to make the same sacrifice should the shoe be on the other foot. I have an amazing husband, and my children have an amazing Father.

   I know this post was rather random, and out there but I just have a lot of feelings and emotions this morning, that I wanted to get out.

BYE BYE
    

I know I know....

So I have been getting some snarky remarks about how I never update my blog, and to that I have to say.  I know, I know... :)   But the honest truth is that I have had such an uneventful few months it's almost embarrassing.  But, I do have a few highlights that I can go into detail about, so everybody can have the privilege to  know what it's like to be........ Rebecca Lee House.
 
    YAYY  I turned 25 this year :) The day before my birthday and date of expiration, I went the DMV  (in Texas we call them DPS (department of public safety)) and waited to renew my drivers license, I was unable to do so because apparently I have a ticket from about 6 years ago that falls under the Surcharge Program where I have the privilege to pay $260 a year for 3 consecutive years to pay my debt to society for not having insurance.
         ((((( Please note:   at this time I barely had an apartment and didn't have power for a few weeks, and would pick up extra shifts at work just so I could eat,  due to NO money))))

   So regardless, my 4.5 hour wait was wasted.  ANNOYING,  but not the end of the world. 

       NEXT, I have also lost my military I.D. so Luke and I got a babysitter (Thank you Paul) to try and get a new one I brought in my newly expired license, my passport and my social security card, proving who I was. BUT,  my license was expired, and I got the passport when I was 16 and therefore doesn't have my married name on it, and my SS card doesn't have a picture, so they cannot take anything as a form of identification.
   
       I understand that my license is expired, but that doesn't mean that my picture and name are no longer the same.  It's not like everything magically changes... 

          SO I was sent to go get a state id.  After waiting a quick hour I am given a piece of paper that is, for now, my state id. that is now more official than my drivers license and here is what bothers me. Seriously, it's a piece of paper....How is a piece of paper that can be forged by anybody with Paint, and a printer, more official than a license that has been expired for 9 days...ugh... so after getting my id paper, we go back to the Military id place, and they closed....5 minutes prior....at 3:30... 

Luke and I were just laughing as we walked out the door,  it's just like any process that involves the government, one simple task becomes impossible.  WHY does one of the busiest offices on post close at 3:30????  is there a reason besides pissing people off???  I don't think so.

Well after that useless errand, we went and got ice cream to celebrate :)  YAY ARMY!!!

I hope that you all enjoyed my pointless rant,  I think my next blog will go into detail about how different the boys are and my worries for their future :)  Love you all 

Take Care Ya'll        ;)

The last straw

So, as some of you Blog followers may be aware of, last week Alton was diagnosed with the Chicken pox, and we assumed Benjamin had it too because he had the same spots.

Since then we have had a quarantined house, I had to call everybody he played with, AND stopped giving them Benadryl and hydro-cortisone cream (not the best for chicken pox)

Well after 4 days of these shenanigans, I take Alton to the allergist, and am told that Alton, and Benjamin have Chigger bites...NOT chicken pox...

Now I don't know how you all would have reacted,  but I feel pretty salty about it. 

What's more, is I have been talking to our Dr's about Benjamin's congestion issues since he was 5 months old, I just tell the allergist and ask him be Ben would benefit from allergy testing, and he tells me that he may have a mild form of cystic fibrosis, and should be tested...WHY is it that the doctors that I have been seeing for years about this problem, never thought past Zyrtec??????  

So THEN, I decide that Ben may have an ear infection, so I called to see if they had an appt available, they said that I just had to walk in because most of the dr's were on vacation.  I told them I would be walking in right then.  I show up and it's effing their lunch break and we had to wait an hour before they even got back from lunch....WHY they couldn't tell me this BEFORE I drove down there, I don't know... but, that was the last straw.  New dr's office for the boys.

Pretty frustrating day.

But the good news is that Ben will be tested for cystic fibrosis, and he got a referral for the laryngologist because he has some congestion in his ears that I suspect has been there for quite some time.

ALWAYS SOMETHING!!!!


Today  is also my WONDERFUL SONS BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALTON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OOOOHHHHH my GOODNESS

I defy you to find me a cuter baby animal in this world!!!!!

 

 

  

So during my roundabout morning, I stumbled upon Hedgehogs...and WOW, my life has utterly changed.  I LOVE those little baby faces, and their little hands and feet.  I even love how freaking cute they are when they grow up and waddle around.  I LOVE THEM!!!  So Luke, being the amazing husband that he is has found a place for me to get one for my Birthday!!!!!  I am so excited!!